Have you ever had one of those moments in time, whether it be a day, a week, a minute, where you know your prayers have been answered? Monday was a very peaceful day for me. I mentioned it already. Everything seemed to go right. Tuesday was uneventful, which for us, is a blessing unto itself. Wednesday I had to meet someone early in the morning and then go get tortured. I had an appointment to have my eyebrows waxed and I find it incredibly amusing that I actually pay someone to hurt me so terribly. Right before my appoinment my sister called and said "Can I ask you a question?" I asked her if I could call her back as I was still with the person I was meeting with. She said ok. There was no urgency in her voice, which, knowing what I know now I could have killed her, so when I was done I called her back. She asked if she could me back because something had come up. I went to my appointment and then got all the way home when my sister called me back and the conversation went a little something like this....
(Casey) (something I could not understand because it was totally under her breath)
(Me) uhh, what's up?
(Casey) (again really low and I could barly make out the words) I'm pregnant
Let me stop here. For those who may not know, my sister has been trying, unsuccessfully for 4 years to have a baby. They have seen specialist and the whole nine yards. It has been agonizing to watch this couple who so desperately want a child not be able to have a child. When I found out I was pregnant I was nervous about telling my sister. I never thought she would be jealous, I knew she would be so happy for me. I just didn't want her to be happy for me but also disappointed with herself. I'm just so lucky to have her as my sister and best friend. Ok, back to the conversation
(Casey) I'm pregnant
(me) NO YOU AREN'T
(Casey) Yeah, I am
(Me) (in tears at this point) Casey, if you are kidding me I am going to KILL you!
(Casey) I'm not kidding, I've taken 5 tests and they've all come out positive
While I don't really remember everything else that happened after that what I do know is I felt complete and total happiness. A happiness I have never felt before. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that our Father in Heaven not just hears our prayers and knows the desires of our hearts but he listens, he ponders and he answers those prayers that are pure in desire. We were at the temple a couple of weekends ago and I bought a book about infertility in LDS couples. The book was written by a woman who has a phd and had fertility issues. Her and her husband ended up adopting two children. I bought the book and read the entire book on the way home from the temple. Jason was driving and Casey was snoozing in the backseat. The first chapter was about about distinguishing between our time table and the Lord's time table. And also to remind us that infertility is not the Lord's way of punishing anyone. Look at John the Baptist and his parents. John needed to be born at the exact moment in time he was born. Zachariah and Elizabeth longed for a child. They spent many years longing for a child. The Lord heard their prayers but had an agenda all his own for their son. Finally, they conceived. We are on the Lord's time scale, not our own. That story alone gave me peace. How many times have we heard the story of John and his aging parents? Have we ever really considered the story from a "conception/infertility" point of view? I know I never had. After reading the book I gave it to Casey and hoped it would give her some kind of peace. Casey and Mark are going to be amazing parents. I have watched Casey for the last 29 years and have seen her blossom into the woman and wife she has become. I've only known Mark for a little while but I love him like he's been ours forever. There is no couple in this world more deserving of a baby then them. The Lord has certainly taught them patience and they will need it. I am so excited to be sharing this journey of pregnancy with my sister. I was beginning to feel like our little lady was all I could talk about and when your sister is dealing with the issues Casey has been dealing with you don't want to talk about or complain about the little blessing you have growing inside you and the havoc it is bringing on your body. I cried all day yesterday. And for the first time since I became pregnant, it wasn't hormone related. I am beyond thrilled for Casey and the little neice or nephew she will be giving me. That is one lucky little baby!!!
I guess you could say I know exactly what the Pittsburgh Steelers are going through. The first (neice/nephew) one is wonderful but the sixth one brings pure bliss!